Hi, thanks for all the help and info people. You are right, I believe what you say but for me to live what you say, seems so impossible, here I am living on the little island of Newfoundland, and for me to jump from here to somewhere in the US, or even jump off the island I can't seem to comprehend on my own. I feel like I need a buddy with me or a family with me, maybe I am too much of a "mommy's boy" or something. I think having that solid feeling that you have somebody with you can calm the most frantic of nerves. I know I really need to do this, but it just seems so big, so far, so lonely. To leave everything behind and start afresh would be such a bitter sweet feeling. This is so troublesome.